my life: LOVE LOST

my life: LOVE LOST: Leaving me, I lost love. Hollow once filled, i was empty again Grills in my heart were built from pain, Swollen with emptiness insi...

LOVE LOST

Leaving me, I lost love.
Hollow once filled, i was empty again
Grills in my heart were built from pain,
Swollen with emptiness inside.

Sunshine seeping into a sunken ship,
Truth unmasked, emerged from within,
Filled again with tenderness, once lost,
Pushing the grills to part.

Walls of a kingdom,once forbidden
Broke to a brick,
Barren as a womb,
For a new reign to begin.

Force from the power coaxing to hold,
A river to its brim.
As tender hands clasp mine.
Fingers entwine,shielding what left.
Each finger saying to another, love is here.
Seep it in,before its long gone from within.

-Vishaka Srinath

Another year has come, a new chapter.

New Year's Eve 

I remember the time,when my whole family would watch tv and drink Mirinda and eat Chinese take outs for New Years.we would wind up and cuddle on the sofa with shawls and blankets  to watch shahrukh khan with all the young ladies till 12 ,after which we would sleep through the night and get up fresh to start a new year with going to the temple.now the temple may be replaced with hangover cure.

This year 2013 was an unexpectedly a nice year for me personally.what I did this year,I had a chocolate box with small chits , I would write for all the best things that happen to me in that day.i had 365 chits to read and enjoy before I start off with 2014.

I wanted different from this New Year's Eve....not putting up pictures on Facebook with short dress and a bottle of liquor so it looked as if you had a wonderful social life.i doubt if some people really drank that beer or were just holding it to have a profile upgrade.

I wanted the experience to be meaningful ,yes by that I mean checking my resolutions for last year and figure if I got down to doing it all..I got 7/10 by the way.

It was 31 st December morning before I knew it.. And my changed new year eves plans were to be in action. I didn't want to be surrounded by loud music or drunken men and long food queues.

 I Began the last day of 2013 - my style,worked out at the gym and actually ran 3.1 Kms and felt not obligated or tired.

I then put up my new resolution list on my cupboard,cleaned my room.

I then had a usual day at work ,was just waiting for the day to almost end.let me tell you why almost end,I wanted to watch the sunset!!!! many people say it's both a happy feeling and a sad one.. I would go with the happy one.

I went to the terrace of my apartment  at 5:30 pm ,just watched the sun set.it was a very nice feeling,liberating as I would say,making me feel that there is a lots in store for me ,it gave me hope that life is beautiful and surprising . It was as if this year was ending and a new one would begin.frankly speaking or rather writing..I would not believe if people said what's there in New Year's Eve Same as any day? 

Its a new beginning I feel of another chapter in my life.everyone says 'new year ,new me!'

I would say 'new year, a better me'

Then I got home ,with that warm happy  feeling.i made ice cream for my family a coconut and chocolate one - super hit with my family.

At 8 ,we all had a warm spicy and tasty meal made by mum.then waited for the shows to start on tv.

They were quite boring and monotonous.

So dad and me planned to drive our new car around and go for a long drive dad and daughter bonding drive.

I had the best time on this drive,listening to abba on full volume and not much traffic.we drove for 50 minutes ,one of the best 50 minutes of this day.

We were greeted by crazed crowed, i  was in the mood of screaming happy new year back at them.the whole frenzy made me feel apart of a bigger thing!doing New Years my way was like showing my individuality.zooooom!! 

We were just in time for the new year to kick in.

The count down is funny- it's as if a space craft had to take off , by the way it was from 60 so .. Patience testing. At last it reached 10 was when I felt the excitement kick in 10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1 !! At last New Years and a start for a better me !! A promise to myself for a better year and a responsible year ahead.